Is it not normal to be scared ? Is the society so mean that being scared is considered as a weakness?
Then I'd have to admit I'm weak, even though someone told me that your own weakness is to think you're weak. But what do they think? Do they think I will get through everything like that? That I could snap my fingers and get it?
I am so scared, so scared of losing everything, so scared of seeing my plans turning into a disaster, failing and disappearing in front of my eyes. I thought I was stronger after all that stuff that happened to me, but obviously I am not.
People, don't let the society make you feel shit because you want to cry, because you want to give up everything, to go back to what you used to be and to stay there, forever. Don't think you are weak because you miss somebody you shouldn't be missing, because you think too much about what you used to be.
It's in your own hands to become that person again, but you can even enhance it, make it better than even before. Always remember that the past is filled and the future isn't, your future though depends on what you do right now, you make your choices for the future. And I get you can be scared, but enjoy life as much as you can, don't ignore the people that used to be your friends, don't ignore the people you used to love, be yourself.
Carpe Diem
