Time

What happened to us huh? What sort of thing can keep two people away from each other? 
- DISTANCE
How does it not bother me anymore ? How did I even get to this point where I'm so used to your silence?
- TIME, it heals everything, weather it's a broken heart or a wound. But both are very similar to be fair. Both hurt like hell and take a long time to heal, and when it does, there's still a scar. A scar stays with you for your entire life, it doesn't go away. It's a warning sign that says 'Hey, be careful, you've been hurt there already...'. And as it says, you have to be careful, you have to watch out for everything that could possibly hurt you that much again, and stay away from it. Time helps you to forgive, it gives your heart the strength to love and smile again, it also helps you to forget. Forgetting everything and getting used to something new. It makes you grow up ad be more mature, it gives you the chance to look back, to learn from your mistakes and to accept them. Accepting what happened and not living in denial is the most important thing: if you live in the past, how will you be able to move on and start over? Maybe there's a time for everything, and today is not yesterday and neither tomorrow. 
If you learn from what happened, the next time it will be easier, you won't struggle that much to forget, to forgive and to accept it. You won't be that angry at a person who's trying to do the exact same thing as you are. It will make you stronger to face it and give you the ability not to fear it.
Maybe you're afraid to grow up, maybe you're afraid of the power of time, but honestly, let it do it's job.
He's scary, but he's nice sometimes. And remember, time heals everything.

Thoughts

Is it not normal to be scared ? Is the society so mean that being scared is considered as a weakness?
Then I'd have to admit I'm weak, even though someone told me that your own weakness is to think you're weak. But what do they think? Do they think I will get through everything like that? That I could snap my fingers and get it?
I am so scared, so scared of losing everything, so scared of seeing my plans turning into a disaster, failing and disappearing in front of my eyes. I thought  I was stronger after all that stuff that happened to me, but obviously I am not.
People, don't let the society make you feel shit because you want to cry, because you want to give up everything, to go back to what you used to be and to stay there, forever. Don't think you are weak because you miss somebody you shouldn't be missing, because you think too much about what you used to be.
It's in your own hands to become that person again, but you can even enhance it, make it better than even before. Always remember that the past is filled and the future isn't, your future though depends on what you do right now, you make your choices for the future. And I get you can be scared, but enjoy life as much as you can, don't ignore the people that used to be your friends, don't ignore the people you used to love, be yourself.
Carpe Diem

Breaking

When your life isn't good enough anymore, when your "best friends" turn back to friends or even to "someone I know", when someone you think didn't care about you starts caring. When you lose contact with someone that's right beside you, when everything starts getting boring and sad. You know you're breaking but you don't want to face it, you don't want to tell anyone. The tears become a daily routine and you stop talking because words are useless, You lose the self confidence you used to have and your smile is just a mask, everything around you is fade, sometimes you lose control.

It's weird being scared of what someone you used to be so close to can think about you.

When you look back at what you used to be, and how you act with others you wonder how they didn't realize it. You need changement but it doesn't happen, you're stuck in this permanent weird mood. It's heavy on your shoulders and on your chest, crying doesn't help anymore. You feel weak and stupid and people probably think the same way.

And one day, a sunshine appears, you meet new people that tell you everything you needed to hear, they bring you back to life and make you hope again. But there's still that thing in your mind, it doesn't want to leave you, whenever you're alone again it comes back and hits you. You're alone in this and when you finally talk to somebody you're afraid of their judgement.

But now you need to get over it and to take control over  your life .

Mirror

Sometimes I wish it was you instead of that mirror. I wish you could hear me, you could see me crying over you. Sometimes I wish all this never happened but then I realise it was one of the best things that ever happened to me, that I had never been this happy before. But it hurts me now, and what hurts the most is your silence. I knew it would happen, but I wasn't ready for this, not at all.
Sometimes I wish you could see how strong I act in front of that mirror, how strong I would like to be the next time I'll see you. But the only thing I see is that mirror. He knows me better than anyone does. He has seen my weakness and my hopes, my disillusions and all my tears. In front of him I tell my heart out, I tell myself to be strong, I get angry at myself for being so weak. It's like he could see through my soul and my messy feelings. I imagine you are behind it hearing me sometimes. I start telling things I don't even believe in, things I don't want to admit, that I need to move on, to forget you. I talk to myself, my eyes stuck in my own eyes. Oh I wish they were yours. As I talk to myslef the only thing I thing I have in mind is that question, a single question: 'WHY'. Yeh, why? Why me, why you?
I know I look ridiculous and honestly I don't know what I would do if someone saw me like this, talking madly to myself in front of a bathroom mirror, but it will never happen as I always lock the door.
I wish you could see how much you meant and how much you still mean to me. When I'm talking to that mirror, I feel crazy but not the good crazy way. I feel like a weirdo, but not the weirdo you loved. Wait, did I say 'loved'? Have you ever loved me anyways? Were your love words some words said just to make me feel good like all the promises and plans we had ? You made me dream and I'm thankful for this but now I got the message and I need to get back to reality.
Take care.

People change

I had never realized how much people can change in a year. Maybe because I had never left for such a long time. But now that I did, I kind of feel like they're not the same, as I'm not the same as before.  It's incredible the number of things that changed in my life through a year. I met so many new people who made me discover so many things. I lived many experiences, fell in love, was heartbroken, learnt a new language...
This year, I can say that I'm not the same person as I was. Many of my opinions on the world, on people changed, sometimes they are clearer, sometimes I'm even more confused. But what changed the most is definitely my personality. I am less shy than I was, I kinda opened myself to others. Even my style changed, I don't give a damn about what people think about it !
Anyways, I like myself right now and I wouldn't change back for anything on earth.
Guys, don't try to change people back to what they were before.

I went away...

Leaving someone is always hard, always...

Happiness and Risk

Hey guys, today I just wanted to tell you something that matters for me.
It doesn't come from me, it comes from a movie I loved. This is the truest thing I've ever heard in my life and if I think about it, I realise it is related to everything: friends, family, teams and even schoolmates. "This", is a quote saying
" Happiness is real only shared" When I first read that quote, I actually didn't realise how much it was true. I thought it was just and trendy quote from a movie (Into the wild), a quote which didn't make any sense for me. And now, now after something happened in my life, now I realise that even though you can think that you are happy because you succeeded in something, you won't be entirely satisfied if someone isn't sharing that moment with you.
Taking risks can drag you somewhere you don't really want to go, but sometimes, it actually takes you way further than you can expect. One day someone told me that there was no fun if there's no risk. I didn't believe him at first and then I took the risk. I seriously do believe him now that I am so happy even though I'm taking the risk to be extremely sad. People could tell you that if someone makes you take some risks, you shouldn't listen to them, but you SHOULD. These people are the funniest and happiest people in the world because they live every moment as it was the last one.

Shadows

Hi everyone!
Last summer I went to visit the Alhambra in Granada, Spain. This trip inspired me for this little text I wrote...

Confused :/

Hi everyone...
I have no text with me this time but just a question... Have you ever be so confused that you don't even know how to deal with anything ? Has someone randomly make you feel like that?
Losing all your bearings, just because of single sentence? That sentence that destroys all the feelings and beliefs you could have had.
And then you just dont know what to do, you don't know what to say, and you don't know what to think...
I just don't know how to get over that confusion and how to deal with it :/
I'm lost

Running away

Hey guys,
Here are the thoughts of that guy who wants to run away from the world because one of his "friends" just stabbed him in the back. I guess that happened to many people, to girls and boys as it is in the story.