Here are the thoughts of that guy who wants to run away from the world because one of his "friends" just stabbed him in the back. I guess that happened to many people, to girls and boys as it is in the story.
He wants to be alone right now. He feels so mad about everything. One of the people he trusted the most, one of the people he thought was his friend just stabbed him in the back. He just wants to disappear, to fly, to run, to go away. He doesn’t want all that movement around him at all. He is always with people trying to hide his anger, his fears, his sadness, his imperfections. He doesn’t actually know if people like him for himself or for someone they think he is: that “cool” person who laughs all the time, is always happy, never sad, trustworthy and who listens to everyone telling their problems over and over.
He doesn’t want to admit it but he cried a few minutes ago. He doesn’t want to admit it because boys are suppose to be strong, not to cry because they might have lost a friend. He is too scared of being rejected because he is too weak so he creates a sort of shelter where he takes refuge whenever he feels too sensitive about something. That’s also why whenever he is talking about something that really matters for him, he gets involved until he gets mad about it. He tends to over react about a lot of things, because he thinks everything is important for him, nothing is more important than another, the only things that might matter a bit more for him are his friends, his family and his future.
About his future he doesn’t actually know what to do. He is good in class, he likes writing and likes learning new languages, he obviously likes talking too new people and would be thinking of being a psychologist if he wasn’t that bad in sciences. And people like talking to him, sometimes they just come to him and talk about their problems, their fears and sometimes about how happy they feel at the moment.
When you get to know him better, he is a really funny guy, he does know he always make bad jokes that at the end make everyone laugh because they were extremely bad. He knows how to joke about himself and how to ignore mean comments from the others. Even if sometimes, after a while he remembers these comments and feels sad, sometimes guilty, sometimes rejected.
People say he is a nice guy you can trust, that this guy will always be on your side if he agrees with you and that he will stick to his moral and not be influenced by the judgment of others.
Maybe all of that is true, but the only thing he wants right now is to run away. Some people are just annoying him at the moment and he would like to avoid them but he can’t.
That one friend who stabbed him in the back is just so moody and he never knew what this friend actually thought about him. When he met him for the first time, he knew they had completely different personalities but he decided to give it a try and it worked. But this friend never told him what he thought, this friend left him behind during a long moment because he had found someone more interesting to hang out with. And of course, because he is too naive and too nice to everyone, he accepted his friend back when the cooler third friend left.
But now, now that is too much, this friend is spreading rumours about him and people are listening to him because he is much more popular than him. What he doesn’t understand is why, why people pay attention to him although he is completely insignificant, completely normal.
He used to say he didn’t care about what people say but maybe he finally does, and he doesn’t know if it’s good or bad. However, he will stay the way he is because it is the way he likes himself and he doesn’t want to change anything about himself. 
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